| Set me free,
Set me free,
I don't wanna fight anymore,
Set me free,
Set me free,
I'm picking myself up off the floor,
Leave me here alone,
Let me bleed,
Set me free.
Set me free,
Set me free,
I don't wanna hurt anymore,
Set me free,
Set me free,
I'm checking all my pain at the door,
Leave me here alone,
Let me be,
Just set me free.
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| Oh, Swedish Fish, you never let me down. Through the good and the bad, I can always count on you in the end to dry my tears.
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| You know what? It's hard getting over him. It's something I wish I didn't have to do. But he isn't giving me any other option. And apparently we won't be talking anymore either. This is bullshit and I hate it. So much.
I have trouble focusing in class. I couldn't do anything today without thinking about him. I convinced myself earlier for a little bit that I would be ok, but I'm pretty sure that tonight I won't be able to sleep.
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| So I deactivated my Facebook 2 days ago. I'm not signing on to iChat or Skype either. I'm trying a sort of online detox, if you will. I realized that I spend too much time "Facebook stalking"--and it's not healthy. I should work on relationships OUTSIDE of the online world and focus on other things. Since deleting my Facebook, my room has been a lot quieter and calmer. If life gets too boring, maybe I'll go back, but I'm hoping I won't for a while, atleast. We'll see.
Life is interesting right now. I've been vegetarian for a little over 2 months now and vegan for just over a week. Being vegan has been fine--not too difficult, really. I've noticed that I have been losing a little bit of weight, but I've been doing the vegan thing WITH exercise everyday, so I'm sure that is helping too.
I'm trying to focus more on school now, which has been going pretty well, I think--but we'll see how long that lasts. I'm going to try to get involved with our career center on campus to try to maybe get an internship for next semester with Sony Music, perhaps? That would be awesome.
I feel relaxed. Looking at that last post I submitted is kind of ridiculous, I think. It was silly--people make their own decisions and I can't stop it. It wasn't even a bad one. He was just drinking. Oh well, it's not a huge deal. I guess it helps that we aren't together anymore either. I just need to let go sometimes--not freak out so much.
I think living without a Facebook or a Skype is kind of letting me look at my own life and see what I want to accomplish/fix. I just hope it doesn't backfire.
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| I learned a lot of things tonight.
A lot of things I didn't want to know, but I needed to know.
I could use a good cry right now.
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